Tuesday 17 August 2010

Shocking shocking shocking!

I have been busy with things lately regardless how much i complaint about not having anything to do or things to keep myself busy like other effective adults do. So, here's what happened. I decided to get the annual physical check up from Sindecuse Health Center on third of august. Pap smear, breast cancer test et cetera. While i was in the doc's office, she said that test results will be back in a week and results are expected to be fine since my first (and unprotected) sexual intercourse was three months back and there would really be no indication of abnormal cells or tissues, and HPV since these viruses would normally take up to three years to be detectable. She told me she would call me if the results came back abnormal or if there was any problems. I had no worries knowing that I have had only ONE real sexual intercourse and the chances of being infected is extremely low. Unfortunately, I received a call from the doc somewhere on the second week of August 2010 and i was told that my Pap Smear is abnormal with a HSIL, which basically means that it can turn into a cancer anytime. I was shocked, surprised, anxious, and all other feelings i don't even know how to explain. She had to refer me to Borgess women's health in portage where they have a better facility and a good gyno. I cried every night since then. It's not fair to be because i don't think i'm a bad bitch that would sleep around and because i am not. I am going to have my first biopsy/colposcopy in two days. I'm scared but i need to keep myself fresh and positive. Doc said my immune system can fight off the abnormal cells if i'm strong enough, mentality has a LOT to do with these too. She tried to calm me down because the result was really shocking. It was my first pap smear and i had it done in the right time, how can it possibly turn into the last stage of precancerous tissues?? It was the only time i had sexual intercourse with a GUY too! as bad as it may sound, there's no good getting upset, all i can do right now is to help my bod fight off the viruses. I'm going to be fine and everything is going to be alright. I live you BO! no one can hurt you without your permission!!

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