taking an initiative step

So its been a while...

I have not been doing anything interesting recently. All I do is wasting my time and money at the local bars and hookah lounge.

I asked myself- why? why can't I be like others? Why can't I be an optimist? Why can't I that girl that everyone around would look out for? one that would lock all the eyes when seen by others? one that knows how to have fun and provides some sort of benefits at the same time? y'know? By going to Ybar, Wayside and Hookah Lounge would not make anything better. I want to be that girl that people would look at mt and say 'She's THE girl' as known as wonder woman, super woman.

I want to quit complaining and start doing. Help. I just don't know how.

Maybe I should just pretend myself writing to to a psychiatrist. Maybe it will help.

To be continue...